THOUGHT OF THE (last) WEEK:

You know what I absolutely hate...

I HATE DOUBTING MYSELF!

Going back to school after spring break was a killer. I actually wished that spring break didn't even exist because getting the motivation to go back is like telling a cat to swim (okay bad analogy, but you get the point-cat's hate the water right). I had more homework in that week than any other week. How is that even possible...Spring Break literally has the word BREAK in it. So of course I procrastinated with my homework and got it done at the very last second & then as soon as I got that homework done I was piled up with bigger projects; which meant more countless hours were going to keep me up late. Let's just say I survived...barely (I'm being a TAD dramatic).

This last week at school I was definitely tried and tested. I thought all the hard work I had put into my projects were just going to waste because of the feedback I was getting from my teachers. At that moment I instantly doubted myself & my capabilities (work) completely. I thought what am I going to do, this was the major I had picked and I am way too far into it to change it now. Oh crap is right! Not only did I doubt myself, but I also started comparing myself to the others in my class.

Why is it that we do that. WHY? I must admit I struggle with this one. Why can't I just be completely excited about the designs that I am make. After going through this whole pitty party of mine I was hit with something. That something was in my Institute class.

The Lord definitely knows what He is doing. When I least expect it He is right there helping me through it. What an incredible blessing it is to have that faith that He is always there & will forever be there if I continue to do those things He asks of me. He will not put things in front of us that we can not handle. These trials that I have been facing at school are only making me learn, but are helping me become a better designer and a better person!