Expecting the Unexpected
I've been thinking a while about how I was going to put into words the way that I am feeling and have been for quite some time. As most of you know this rarely ever happens. But it is something that is so precious, touchy, and dear to my heart. It's what I've wanted since I can even remember. And that seems like a pretty long time. It is something that just came completely came out of the blue and yet there were signs all around me that brought me to thinking about it often.
I have seen quite a few people struggle because of it and that's why I have been wanting to be so careful with how I said and shouted to the world, without hurting those around me. I hold a very special place in my heart with those that haven't had the chance or have had a really hard journey with it.
I am pregnant. I am pregnant! It still feels so surreal. I get the chance to be a Mom to a child that my Heavenly Father will send me in JULY.
I felt so selfish at first because Judd and I weren't trying at all. And by at all I mean I was taking birth control. And I know this may just make those women who can't get pregnant or miscarry hurt. But I know that the Lord has a plan for all of us and we may not understand it at the time or even until the next life, but He knows all of us. He knows our wants and needs. He cheers when we are cheering and he cries when we cry. His time was different than my time. I wanted to be able to finish school. I now see how selfish that was.
Yes, I still am going to try my hardest to finish my last couple of semesters, but I know that being a Mom is way more important (for me). Strengthening and growing my family is more important and like I said it has been something I have always wanted ever since I was just tiny. I always felt that that was my purpose in life. To be a Mom.
When we were asked by teachers in elementary what we wanted to be when we grow up, my answer would always be... I want to be a Mom. I want to be a MOM just like my MOM, my AUNTS, and my GRANDMAS (& I'm adding my SISTERS to this list). And now the time has come. I get the chance to be a mom to a beautiful baby...
BOY!!!! You guys, a BOY. I love him so much already and how can that be. I get lost in thinking about what he is going to look like, calling him my own son, his personality... and the list goes on and on.
We are so very excited with this new adventure that is approaching and I feel great. I am lucky because I haven't been sick one bit (unless you count yummy prego acne). I can't wait to see Judd become a Dad to this boy. It just warms my heart thinking about it.
I love my Heavenly Father and Savior and I am so very grateful for the plan. The plan of eternal families, the plan that my Father in Heaven has for me, for judd, and for our future family.
I have seen quite a few people struggle because of it and that's why I have been wanting to be so careful with how I said and shouted to the world, without hurting those around me. I hold a very special place in my heart with those that haven't had the chance or have had a really hard journey with it.
I am pregnant. I am pregnant! It still feels so surreal. I get the chance to be a Mom to a child that my Heavenly Father will send me in JULY.
I felt so selfish at first because Judd and I weren't trying at all. And by at all I mean I was taking birth control. And I know this may just make those women who can't get pregnant or miscarry hurt. But I know that the Lord has a plan for all of us and we may not understand it at the time or even until the next life, but He knows all of us. He knows our wants and needs. He cheers when we are cheering and he cries when we cry. His time was different than my time. I wanted to be able to finish school. I now see how selfish that was.
Yes, I still am going to try my hardest to finish my last couple of semesters, but I know that being a Mom is way more important (for me). Strengthening and growing my family is more important and like I said it has been something I have always wanted ever since I was just tiny. I always felt that that was my purpose in life. To be a Mom.
When we were asked by teachers in elementary what we wanted to be when we grow up, my answer would always be... I want to be a Mom. I want to be a MOM just like my MOM, my AUNTS, and my GRANDMAS (& I'm adding my SISTERS to this list). And now the time has come. I get the chance to be a mom to a beautiful baby...
BOY!!!! You guys, a BOY. I love him so much already and how can that be. I get lost in thinking about what he is going to look like, calling him my own son, his personality... and the list goes on and on.
We are so very excited with this new adventure that is approaching and I feel great. I am lucky because I haven't been sick one bit (unless you count yummy prego acne). I can't wait to see Judd become a Dad to this boy. It just warms my heart thinking about it.
I love my Heavenly Father and Savior and I am so very grateful for the plan. The plan of eternal families, the plan that my Father in Heaven has for me, for judd, and for our future family.