You know what I absolutely hate...

I HATE DOUBTING MYSELF!

Going back to school after spring break was a killer. I actually wished that spring break didn't even exist because getting the motivation to go back is like telling a cat to swim (okay bad analogy, but you get the point-cat's hate the water right). I had more homework in that week than any other week. How is that even possible...Spring Break literally has the word BREAK in it. So of course I procrastinated with my homework and got it done at the very last second & then as soon as I got that homework done I was piled up with bigger projects; which meant more countless hours were going to keep me up late. Let's just say I survived...barely (I'm being a TAD dramatic).

This last week at school I was definitely tried and tested. I thought all the hard work I had put into my projects were just going to waste because of the feedback I was getting from my teachers. At that moment I instantly doubted myself & my capabilities (work) completely. I thought what am I going to do, this was the major I had picked and I am way too far into it to change it now. Oh crap is right! Not only did I doubt myself, but I also started comparing myself to the others in my class.

Why is it that we do that. WHY? I must admit I struggle with this one. Why can't I just be completely excited about the designs that I am make. After going through this whole pitty party of mine I was hit with something. That something was in my Institute class.

The Lord definitely knows what He is doing. When I least expect it He is right there helping me through it. What an incredible blessing it is to have that faith that He is always there & will forever be there if I continue to do those things He asks of me. He will not put things in front of us that we can not handle. These trials that I have been facing at school are only making me learn, but are helping me become a better designer and a better person!

I still have a LOT of practice!!! As you can tell!!!

Yesterday- I had the chance of being in a film- for the LOGAN film festival(hopefully)! A kid from my class needed a few people so of course I jumped right in and helped. My part in the film was a teenager girl. It's based around the 50's so of course I got to get all dazzled up in 50's stuff ( well I tried to put together something that looked like the 50's from my closet). They call it..."The Flying Ace." To tell ya the truth it was an absolute blast! The people were so fun to work with..&..they are extremely talented. -Lets hope their film makes it! :)

Here are a few pictures at the ReAL game!!! We were lucky enough to sit & watch front the suite! Megan (my neighbor) has ALL the connection...I swear :) It was a fun night, but I was really confused watching the game cause I know NOTHING about soccer ha ha :) but it was a great experience/memory which kept us in dang traffic forever--while everyone whined I really tried to be that (annoying) positive one haha :) & I did just that!!!

(this is last year dying eggs w/ Elder Rydalch- we dyed eggs 2 years in a row so its going to be weird w/out him;)