You know what I absolutely hate...

I HATE DOUBTING MYSELF!

Going back to school after spring break was a killer. I actually wished that spring break didn't even exist because getting the motivation to go back is like telling a cat to swim (okay bad analogy, but you get the point-cat's hate the water right). I had more homework in that week than any other week. How is that even possible...Spring Break literally has the word BREAK in it. So of course I procrastinated with my homework and got it done at the very last second & then as soon as I got that homework done I was piled up with bigger projects; which meant more countless hours were going to keep me up late. Let's just say I survived...barely (I'm being a TAD dramatic).

This last week at school I was definitely tried and tested. I thought all the hard work I had put into my projects were just going to waste because of the feedback I was getting from my teachers. At that moment I instantly doubted myself & my capabilities (work) completely. I thought what am I going to do, this was the major I had picked and I am way too far into it to change it now. Oh crap is right! Not only did I doubt myself, but I also started comparing myself to the others in my class.

Why is it that we do that. WHY? I must admit I struggle with this one. Why can't I just be completely excited about the designs that I am make. After going through this whole pitty party of mine I was hit with something. That something was in my Institute class.

The Lord definitely knows what He is doing. When I least expect it He is right there helping me through it. What an incredible blessing it is to have that faith that He is always there & will forever be there if I continue to do those things He asks of me. He will not put things in front of us that we can not handle. These trials that I have been facing at school are only making me learn, but are helping me become a better designer and a better person!

First of all I just want to apologize about not having that photo up that I have been promising for a couple weeks now. And I know my excuse is always things have been busy. Yes that has truth to it, but also because I just haven't felt up to it. 

(Mom, Dad, Chandler(Were), Whit(Ween), James(Jimmy), Brooklyn(Brooky), Melinda(Nin)

thanks Haley(Hales) & Deven(DEV) for letting me take pictures of YOU! -such good sports-

( i love gettings LETTERS) I always love Tuesdays because...it's usually the day I get a letter from my missionary aka Elder Rydalch! I can't tell you how much these letters make my day! It is so incredible to see the growth in his testimony & spirit! He is amazzzzing! A direct quote from his letter was....            " I have LOVED my mission so far even though it hasn't always been the easiest. I have seen myself grow in ways I couldn't even imagine. I have changed quite a bit....not my personality DON'T WORRY, but just my thoughts and intentions in life. Which I think is great RIGHT? My intentions and thoughts are starting to line up with Heavenly Father's MORE I would say. If that makes sense!" -Elder Judd Rydalch Not only is his testimony growing out there in Texas, but I feel receiving his letters, emails, & recordings helps me grow. It makes me want to be a better person and it definitely strengthens my own testimony! I don't know what I would do without the Gospel in my own life! What an amazing blessing it truly is!  Not only do I love Tuesdays because of my sweet letters, but also because I know that one of my new favorite shows comes on. Even though I don't have time to watch them on Tuesday nights especially this week (2tests & lots of homework). I definitely make an effort as quick as possible to tune in on Hulu. My new favorite show is "Jane By Design." Of course I like it because of the design part :) but it's just a show you don't have to worry about too bad of stuff creepin' in it! :) YAY! Humor Half: So the funny story I have picked for today is..... Last semester I was set up on a Blind Date by one of my favorite girls in my English class. So this kid (we will call him) Herbert took me with 2 other people to the roller skating rink at the Logan Fun Park. Yes I said rollerskating and no I didn't choose to wear the skates I wore ROLLERBLADES! Well Herbert decided to try out the skates. It really was such a fun date & I had a blast, but yes of course because it's me Kayla, something had to go wrong & this is what went wrong. We all started playing tag yes on wheels. It was great & was going really well & not to mention a really good workout! Well after falls, pushing, dancing, and laughs it came to that point. My date definitely took me out & by taking me out i mean he ran straight into me & we flipped over each other and just were tangled like a pretzel. I definitely had bruises for awhile. But it was fun & I would do it again.